meのつもり

Thursday, March 30, 2006

オソイ、この頭

今日、急にほめられた。 ほめられるのが嫌いわけじゃないけど。。いつも、どうやってうまく当意即妙できるのかなって感じ。  

今日はほんのすこしだけ。 カフェに行って、帰ろうとしたら、可愛い男の子のスタッフに、「このシャツ、カワイイね!」 って言われた。 私の南反応は?

「え?」

そう、それだけ。はずかしいなぁ、そのバカな反応が。。

彼は、もう一回言ってくれた。 今度の反応は?

「そう?ありがとう。。」 で、逃げた。

思い返すと、なんでもっとカッコいい反応できなくて。。たとえば、

「あなたの顔のほうがかわいい」 とか 
「そう? ちゃあ、いま貸してあげるわ!」 (スケベすぎけど、そりゃ!)

おそいなぁ、この頭。

Friday, March 24, 2006

Just in case you wondered where I was..

I'm here. Battling through the mechs and Godzilla attacks, and fighting off ninja schoolgirls for all the hot ninjas. Apparently.. :)

http://wiki.chakuriki.net/en/index.php/Japan


edit: aw crap, on reflection do I live here? I'm so confuuuuused! Both seem so familiar..

http://wiki.chakuriki.net/en/index.php/Lost_Kingdom

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

On issuing a painful retraction.

See: "Kamikaze Love Games - Revisited."

Ok, so I was wrong.

Ouch, that is painful to say! So I over-reacted, and he was neither spineless nor irritating. In fact, he was..just great.. and I feel like a complete prick. (Luckily, that isn't an unusal feeling, so I think I'll be fine)

And I will definitely be stupid enough to date him again because I really really like him (hence the anger) it's just the thought of falling in love and the gut wrenching pain it involves makes me want to hide under my bed and not come out until I've properly scared him away. Like the giant prick I am.

大喧嘩の原因とは?

私は、イギリスにいるベストフレンドと大喧嘩しちゃった。 原因は、いや、はっきり言えない。 下記の人の話しようとしたら、いきなり起こられた。 やっぱり、イギリスにいるベストフレンドというのは、実は、元彼なんで、ちょっとヤキモチのかな。。

結局、大喧嘩になっちゃって、彼に”もう、二度と会いたくない、話したくない、”と言われて、そのままでmsn切っちゃった。。(涙)

ヤキモチが原因か。。でも彼にも彼女がいるし。 ヤキモチだったら、タイミングがおかしいと思うけど。

心配してる。彼、ほんとに大丈夫かな。。

Kamikaze Love Games - Revisited

*sigh* You think I'd give up, really. I'm vaguely intelligent, sometimes, I don't fall over so much while getting dressed or anything, so what is it about this guy that makes me a moron? For "this guy" read "odd suicide guy" of two posts below.
Yes, readers, I am enough of a moron to go back for more. Well, he seemed cute ok? And it was going really really well for a while. Seriously, he was saying the right things, and not making me want to strangle him. Or myself. Bonus. Until tonight.

I mailed him yesterday to see if he wanted to meet me today. No reply. Now, for the average intelligent girl, that would be enough of a hint. But not for me, oh no! *unfurls kamikaze love game official cape* I mail him again tonight, "Feel like coming over?" but he replies with "I'm tired, so I'll give it a miss."

..............

you what now?

You'll give me a miss, because you're tired? Meeee? but you haven't seen me for 2 weeks!! *wounded pride curls up sobbing in the corner* So, I guess I got fed up of only meeting him once every so often, that fact that it was blatantly obvious he was hardly beating the door down to see me, pretty much all the evidence was stacked against me.

But I'm not one to go down without a fight. So, I mail back "Ok, have a good rest. By the way I really like you. I have to tell you else it's going to irritate me. Am I wasting my time?"

I'm still waiting for a reply.

やれやれ    笑

I really meant that too. All parts of it. I really really like this guy, and I really really don't want him to waste my time, as there are thousands of fish in the sea. What is wrong with a straight answer? How could he think it would be more difficult to hear the truth than to wait and wait for something that's not going to happen?

Is he spineless?
Was I too pushy?
Will I be stupid enough to date him again??

Answers on a postcard..